I always thought it would happen like a tsunami, you know?

Like the big change would just wash over me in this big monumental way and that I would be forever different.

One moment scared and anxious and wondering where I was going

and the next my feet would just know where to take me.

I was never taught about how it happens slowly

and how it takes work and planning and practice and patience with yourself

To fail and fail again

And that it’s the small changes that start to stick

I was never taught that you can take it one day at a time

But God damn what a relief .