My birthday Came and went this year.
I did the math and you were around for a quarter of my life.

I just wanted to thank you
Thank you for setting me free
And not only leaving the door open
But drop kicking me out.

Thank you for the poetry
for the pain that spilled out
From all the cracks you left in
My self image
And my self love

Thank you
But I think I’ve gone dry now.

I wish I could say that
There are wine corks|
From wine bottles I’ve drank dry
Trying to patch up The holes you left in me

But I drank so many bottles
I could only afford twist caps.

Only bottles with cheap labels
ones I could barely read
From intoxication
and tears.

And I’m sorry
Sorry for the New Years night
When I promised I’d be back
But then Jameson and I made bad choices
And I left you with an armful of fireworks
And a stomach full of grief.

Thank you
Even though your decision to leave was selfish
Thank you anyway

Because I never knew
I was in a cage
Until you pushed me out
And forced me to fly.